Yesterday I was taking pictures in our yard when I was surprised to see a bee come out of a jasmine flower.
Rumi:
Thirst drove me down to the water where I drank the moon’s reflections.
Invitations
The Mountain
This morning I decided to drive to the top of Mt. Tam and walk around the circle at the top. When I got out of the car, the smell of the mountain plants in fall was beautifully overwhelming and filling. As I stepped onto the trail, I smelled the smoke from fires to the north. No view of San Francisco or the ocean today!
Landing
In Sensory Awareness, we often ask ourselves or another: Have you landed?
And usually I feel how much more landing can occur, how much more “coming down” and feeling energy, movement, and exchange there can be. How present am I?
Today I’m with transitions, noticing when I walk through an entry or doorway. I pause and contemplate as I invite immersion to journey within me as I enter a new room, a new place. Moving from indoors to out, or outdoors to in, is revelatory as to integrating liquidity and solidity in space.
I try to avoid politics here but lately it seems to require even more landing as I try to digest how close Trump came to a coup, and how even now he continues to try to destroy this democracy.
From Heather Cox Richardson today:
The extremists are bolstered by former president Donald Trump, who posted on his social media platform today that the Republicans in Congress “can and must defund all aspects of Crooked Joe Biden’s weaponized Government…. This is also the last chance to defund these political prosecutions against me and other Patriots. They failed on the debt limit, but they must not fail now. Use the power of the purse and defend the Country!”
Experts say shutting down the government would not, in fact, end the former president’s legal troubles, but he is actually doing more than that here: he is trying to assert dominance over the country. As Representative Adam Schiff (D-CA) said: “Let’s be clear about what the former president is saying here. House Republicans should shut down the government unless the prosecutions against him are shut down. He would deny paychecks to millions of working families & devastate the US economy, all in the service of himself.”
It is for each of us to continue landing within what we know is true as destructiveness and lies dissolve in the swelling oceans of truth.
Equinox
It’s the time of noticing balance and harvest. Eyes brighten with the oranges of pumpkins, the yellows of squash., the culmination of spring and summer.
The Biden administration has announced the creation of the American Climate Corps, “a group of more than 20,000 young Americans who will learn to work in clean energy, conservation, and climate resilience while also earning good wages and addressing climate change”.
Who could be against it?
The Bay area has been inundated with smoke from fires further north. I think most areas of the country have experienced increasing awareness of climate issues this year.
I’m with the words of Andrea Gibson:
I don’t have a single plan for my life more important than learning to love people well.
Of course, that begins with learning to love ourselves and the air we breathe in and out, the planet we share.
One Planet
My husband and I traveled a great deal in Asia back in the day. Now, my son is traveling in Kuwait and Oman. He’s there on business as were we. I now know camels don’t spit, are friendly and sweet, and certainly they are beautiful animals adapted to their environment. Chris slept alone under the stars. What a gift!
Memory
A friend recommended a book, Good Night, Irene, a Novel by Luis Alberto Urrea. I knew what it was about but didn’t expect how personal it would become. My father flew a B-17 out of the base in England where the first part takes place. The author describes the drama and tension of the planes taking off and the wait to see who returned.
I sit here now caught in memories and sadness at the loss of my father who passed away in an accident in 1969. I feel memories of his experience, of how families share a history.
His crew completed the required missions, and then flew out of Italy. The B-17 he was piloting was shot down, and the crew parachuted out along a route that landed them in Austria. My husband and I went to the village where he landed, and met people who saw him land, who fed him, and turned him over to the SS as the village was small and undefended with only women and children left.
Seeing me they knew he lived. They wanted me to know they had no choice, and I understood. They talked of how tall and handsome he was which was true. He was half-German and half-Norwegian, and so again how strange this tragedy of war where depending where one lives determines what side one is on.
Oddly the village was so small, it had no jail or cell so he was held in a small room in which I then stood. The room is in an art center now. The exhibit in the building when I was there was of California landscapes so I felt myself caught in a melange of time travel. I was in the present, the past, and though in Austria seeing a landscape of where I live. I was disoriented and felt sick.
I sit here now absorbing it all. I know that life is impermanent, is always moving, and we honor the flow, and yet, there are places in us that, like stones, create the river’s song.
Rooted with Rock
More than 2000 years ago, the great Taoist philosopher Chuang Tzu said: “The True Man breathes with his heels; the mass of men breathe with their throats.”
Walking brings breath to and through our soles, toes, arch, and heels; it brings us down to the ground.
Yesterday at Tennessee Valley beach, I was entranced with stone, with what surrounds, holds, guides.
At one point I walked on chert, and felt the ridges as though I was walking on the tail of a dragon. No wonder we love fairytales and I think now of the book by Kenneth Grahame, The Reluctant Dragon, about a dragon who preferred writing poetry to fighting.
Ilse Middendorf said: “Perceiving our breath as it comes and goes we discover an opening into our unconscious life, and bring about a conscious expansion into the whole of ourselves.” The whole of ourselves, and I feel the breath move in a wave, connected like a Mobius Strip.
Entering Fall
Feeling the shift in light, I put out pumpkins and change candles to yellow and orange. I breathe more deeply, receive the fresh stirrings in the air activating and energizing the moments remaining to me. I read that people my age are happy because they recognize the gift of each breath, the air moving in and out.
Yesterday I walked to and from Tennessee Valley Beach. Photos speak in the mist.
Entry
I’ve been with my grandson who is three, almost four. It’s pure delight to enter into an imagination where we are moles, lions, jaguars and bears as we protect and feed our baby animals, which are an assortment of all the stuffed creatures he’s been given over the years. I feel myself as fluid when I become another animal, feel what it is to use my mouth and claws to hunt and defend. I see grandson exhibit patience as he waits to pounce on prey, and twists and turns in all sorts of ways, and I do too.
We become the gentle rabbit hiding in the grass, and the curious monkey who peers through a handle-hold in his bed which is lifted so we climb up and down a ladder as we move from the floor to the safety of our blanket and pillow-filled den.
It’s an immersive world being with him as he interprets differently than I so I’m constantly adjusting interpretation and explanation . The blind hanging vertically becomes a carwash for the matchbox cars.
I sit here now looking out on blue sky with a soft touch of fog. How many animals am I today? How do I meet the floor on all fours? What is it to sit in a chair as a bear and type?
I’m reminded of a book by Kiley Reid, Such a Fun Age. It’s about racism, and the joy of being with a three year old. I recommend it as a way to live even more aware.
When I was driving him around town, I took a wrong turn and we stumbled upon a library. When I saw the sign, I slammed on the brakes and parked, and grandson was as excited as I. Books – another way to expand. He chose one about a woman born the same year as I, 1949, and her journey to becoming an astronaut after seeing Sputnik fly overhead in 1957. Dreams fulfill.
Beginning
My son is 49 today, a magic number, seven times seven, an entry number as he gathers all together before a half century comes to pass. I pause in contemplation. 49 years: Birth branching connection in waves of immersion and growth.
We are all connected. To each other, biologically. To the earth, chemically. To the rest of the universe, atomically.
– Neil DeGrasse Tyson
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