Joy

In my meditation today I found myself feeling sorry for Trump, Musk, and cronies.

I read Nicholas Kristof writing about the world’s richest men taking on the poorest children, and doing it with lies.  “The actual amount of U.S. assistance spent on condoms for Gaza in recent years appears to have been not $100 million but $0.”

“Musk lambasted U.S.A.I.D. as “a criminal organization.” In fact, many of its employees have risked their lives in the best tradition of public service. The U.S.A.I.D. Memorial Wall honors 99 people killed while working for the agency in places such as Sudan, Haiti, Afghanistan and Ethiopia.”

Kristof continues: “By my calculations, Elon Musk probably has a net worth greater than that of the poorest billion people on Earth. Just since Donald Trump’s election, Musk’s personal net worth has grown by far more than the entire annual budget of U.S.A.I.D., which in any case accounts for less than 1 percent of the federal budget. It’s callous for gleeful billionaires like Musk and President Trump to cut children off from medicine, but, as President John F. Kennedy pointed out when he proposed the creation of the agency in 1961, it’s also myopic.”

We all benefit from this aid.  Again, how can we not feel sorry for people who live without empathy or heart.  It’s one thing to look at how money is allocated, and another to lie and destroy.

I read about the peaceful protests yesterday and exult in the words: Joy is another form of resistance.

On Monday, we had 70 mph winds, and I watched the redwood stand steady as its branches swirled about.  There may be lots of inane and cruel swirling these days but we stand centered and strong in the cultivation of connection, joy, and the ground beneath our feet, and the air we breathe and share. 

First blossoming of Spring
Nature bends to rise
Egret navigating by the side of the road next to the marsh

Restoration

Today the African proverb comes to me.  “If you think you are too small to make a difference you haven’t spent a night with a mosquito.”

Looking for ways to deal with the political news, I offer a photo visit to Bedwell Bayfront Park in Menlo Park. There are beautiful views, and as one man I passed said to me, “It’s hard to believe it’s built on a former landfill site. 

The park offers a Great Spirit Path with sculptures of stone that illustrate words in a poem. Birds have offered their in-flight contribution to the signs.

Entry
Represented in stone –
I walk with the wind behind me
Welcoming Support
with glad heart
and grateful heart
Making Peace: May it be so!
One View
And another
First daffodils of Spring

Day Without Immigrants

The news today is beyond devastating as Musk takes over our government and shuts down foreign aid. There is no compassion in this, no awareness of how many will be affected in this country and the world.

The Trump administration has also warned more than 1,100 Environmental Protection Agency employees who work on climate change, reducing air pollution, enforcing environmental laws and other programs that they could be fired at any time.

That’s in addition to the insanity of the tariffs.

Meanwhile my local family-owned grocery store Good Earth sends this email which I’m thrilled to honor and respect. I wonder why this isn’t more publicized.

They announce: This is a day without immigrants and products will be limited.

Today, Monday, February 3rd is the Day Without Immigrants, a grassroots organizing movement focused on unifying the voices of immigrants across the country. Today, people throughout the United States are refraining from going to work, attending school, and shopping to help demonstrate the essential impact that immigrants have on our society.

At Good Earth, we recognize that this is an important moment for many of our staff. We support our staff members choice to strike and participate in this day of activism. We also support our staff members who have elected to work today.

We are focused on providing grocery essentials today, however, our product offerings will be very limited in both stores, and all of our food service counters, bakery counters, and cafes will be closed. We ask for your patience with out of stock items and for your support of our staff.

And the tides come and go

Perseverance and Courage

In trying to untangle the onslaught of Trump’s cruelty I read Mariann Edgar Budde’s book, How We Learn to be Brave: Decisive Moments in Life and Faith.

In an example of perseverance, she writes about a sermon she heard given by the late Harvard Chaplain Peter Gomes.  He spoke of Ernest Gordon who wrote the memoir of his three-year captivity in a Japanese prison camp that was made into two films, The Bridge on the River Kwai and To End All Wars.  At first Gordon and his fellow captives were very religious and prayed and expected that God would rescue them.  Many died and others became disillusioned and stopped praying and believing, but then, “something shifted as they responded to the needs of their fellow prisoners, as they cared for and protected them and witnessed others sacrificing their lives in love.”

They began to speak about God in their midst.  “This was not a revival of religion in the conventional sense, but rather the discovery that faith was not what you believed but what you did for others when it seemed you could do nothing at all.”

Budde then writes about Reinhold Niebuhr who wrote what we now know as the Serenity Prayer. Niebuhr also wrote:

Nothing worth doing can be achieved in a lifetime; therefore we must be saved by hope. Nothing that is true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history; therefore we must be saved by faith. Nothing that we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone; therefore we are saved by love.

David Whyte writes about courage.

Courage is the measure of our heartfelt participation with life, with another, with a community, a work, a future. To be courageous is not necessarily to go anywhere or do anything except to make conscious those things we already feel deeply and then to live through the unending vulnerabilities of those consequences. To be courageous is to stay close to the way we are made.

Webbed

World as Lover, World as Self

Years ago I read World as Lover, World as Self by Joanna Macy.  Now, there’s a 30th Anniversary edition of World as Lover: World as Self.  

It’s challenging to understand how our world has turned upside down when I read that on Labor Day weekend 2006, a group gathered in Battery Park, and “One by one, the political candidates of both parties for all the major offices came up on the stage and signed our climate pledge.”

Climate change is not a political or divisive issue.  It’s about our lives and the lives of our children and grandchildren.  Yesterday I was at my grandson’s preschool.  I saw photos of the students planting seeds.  We’re all planting seeds; with every breath we plant, play, connect, and create.  

Tower of Cards

Sobered

I wake excited because I have my grandson this week, and then I read Heather Cox Richardson, and learn more of the news, and I feel the punch. 

Trump didn’t put his hand on the Bibles when he took the oath of office,  Why would he?  He wants to be viewed as God, and here we are in shock.

I’ve lived 75 years.  I never expected this.  

And then, for comfort, we turn to our noble, furred friends.

Ginger and Ebi host a sleepover!

The Elasticity of Feeling

A friend tells me of a friend who with no hope and severe continuing deterioration of the brain drinks from a doctor-prescribed bottle of death.  I don’t know him, and yet he is the age of my son, and I feel the grief of those who love him, and a deep carving inside.

It is said sorrow carves deeply into us like a log carved out to make a boat and so we float on the love grief brings when we let ourselves feel this boundary between the preciousness of life here and what comes when we let go to a wider float as the boat dissolves.

Ice plant growing on rock
Driftwood gathered on the beach
Flight

Meeting What Comes

This evening I entered The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows by John Koenig.  He introduces the book with this:

 “This is not a book about sadness – at least, not in the modern sense of the word.  The word sadness originally meant “fullness” from the same Latin root, satis that also gave us sated and satisfaction.  Not so long ago, to be sad meant you were filled to the brim with some intensity of experience. It wasn’t just a malfunction in the joy machine. It was a state of awareness – setting the focus to infinity and taking it all in, joy and grief all at once. When we speak of sadness these days, most of the time what we really mean is despair; which is literally defined as the absence of hope. But true sadness is actually the opposite, an exuberant upwelling that reminds you how fleeting and mysterious and open-ended life can be. That’s why you’ll find traces of blues all over this book, but you might find yourself strangely joyful at the end of it. And if you are lucky enough to feel sad, well, savor it while it lasts – if only because it means that you care about something in this world enough to let it under your skin.”

Receiving
Entering
Solitude

Transition

Today, Pico Iyer writes a guest essay in the New York Times about when he lost everything in the 1990 Santa Barbara fire.  He says, “Years later a friend would tell me that the Sufis say that you truly possess only what you cannot lose in a shipwreck.”  Living where I do, I am aware of the fragility of the landscape, and the pulse of impermanence.

I read that Trump is a master of the image, of framing and lighting and that’s useful, of course, as here he is again, and then, there is a place of reality, not fantasy.

He’s moved the Inauguration supposedly because of the cold weather, but I wonder about the image of an inauguration with small crowds, many of whom don’t support his lies and deceit.  Michelle Obama and Nancy Pelosi will not be there.  The image may be out of his control.

I think of how we open and close doors, of how we allow the eyelids to cover and uncover the eyes.  How do we meet what comes and unify the tides?

View of San Francisco from Sausalito Friday morning
Transport
Invitation

Impermanence

I went to Rodeo Beach early this morning where it was sunny and warm, no wind.  I watched the changing waves, some flat, others crashing and flaring.  I saw a Great Blue Heron, bluebirds, and otters in the lagoon.  Sitting down on a “bench”, I learned from a passerby that the bench wasn’t there yesterday, and yet there it was, for a moment, today.

Great Blue Heron
Calm
A place to sit today
Exuberance
Shadow and Light