My Story! – Page 43 – Cathy's Blog!

Posted on July 30, 2023July 30, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Journeying

We drove to Santa Barbara on 101, a reminder of the work involved in growing our food. We passed fields lined with people bent over picking and pruning.

On the way back, we took country roads. In 2012 my sons did the Faultline rally and crisscrossed the California fault line in a vintage Datsun with other pre-1976 cars. They traveled mainly on narrow and challenging roads, not passable in wet weather, which it wasn’t then or now, and discovered uncrowded beautiful landscapes, another example of the variety and complexity of the state in which we live. Our destination for lunch was the Parkfield Cafe, worth it for the atmosphere, food, and apple dumplings.

I didn’t take pictures inside the restaurant as it opens at 11:30 and immediately fills with hungry people, all a little more weathered than we. It felt intrusive to gawk and take pictures of saddle stools and the giant fireplace. We ate outside as we do when we travel with Ebi and Ginger, two rescue greyhounds who attract attention wherever we go.

I offer a taste of our trip yesterday.

This is true! We were in grass fed cattle land!

Remembering the native people and who came next

We climb up from Parkfield to overlook the valley below

Posted on July 29, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Embracing the Whole

We leave Santa Barbara today. Our visit has been exquisite and I want to share another side. As is clear, I love taking pictures. I thought I was taking a picture of a rock with some local history on it but a man in the far distance started yelling at me because he thought I was taking a picture of him. I hadn’t noticed him, as there are homeless people here, and so there is the usual honoring of quiet respect and awareness of the disparity that we sadly know. Back at the hotel, I realized yes, I had captured his image in the background and I deleted it.

Today I post images of rocks and sand, movement, dwelling, connection, and change.

Bubbles surround a rock as we travel round the sun

Posted on July 28, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Sunrise in Santa Barbara, CA

Posted on July 26, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Hands to Heart

When in crisis, we often want to keep busy with our hands, that connector to our heart. That’s where we reach out and touch, reach out and receive.

Today I do the simple tasks of living, laundry, dishes, bed making with awareness of connecting hands and heart.

Posted on July 26, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Grief

It is a weight and a fullness. Moisture fills the body, sadness, a reach to understand this parting of the veil, opening to the light.

I’m trying to stay with the weight of the grief, to not run away from it, and I know it’s not just about my cousin, that it’s about all the grief we’ve experienced in our lives as though it creates a mountain on which we climb until we reach our own peak and lift.

Yesterday on my return I drove to the bay to sit, just sit in the abundance of life here. Sausalito is filled with people from other places, different accents and the excitement of curiosity and not knowing exactly where you are.

About a month ago as I was processing this deep feeling of grief, I wrote these words for myself and I share them now.

Like gathering tufts of wool sheep have left on branches and trees, we gather the spirits of those we love who’ve passed, make a cloak for ourselves of wisdom we weave and share.

Posted on July 25, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

A Blessed Day

This morning I drove east to Rio Vista to visit my cousin and say goodbye as she transitions into a new journey. The drive was exquisite through the delta and past the golden summer lands of California.

On the roundabout I miscounted when to exit so I ended up on a deserted gravel road which was perfect as I needed a pee break.

On the left side of the road was an old-fashioned windmill with a gathering of cows.

And on the other side was this.

At my cousin’s house, she showed me a box of cranes, 100 cranes, that my sister-in-law had made and sent to her to help her with her journey of healing and coming to peace and wholeness.

Posted on July 24, 2023July 24, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Morning Sky

This morning the sky was a mix of clarity, fog, and a vibrant pink streak. Now all is blue with some white streaks of clouds. Touch possibility and guidance in change.

Rumi:

Your hand opens and closes, opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralyzed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birds’ wings.

Posted on July 23, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Summer

I’m both anchored and soaring in this summer light. I know many are suffering from excessive heat but here is perfect temperature and peace.

In my meditation this morning I could feel how clearly the bones come down in response to gravity and the nervous system rises and soars to some inner call.

All is changing, and yet at this moment my world is quiet and still. I put a blanket down outside last night to watch for meteor showers. What a gift to lie flat and receive the light of stars. I didn’t see any shooting stars but I did see two airplanes, lights flashing, as they flew by.

Black Elk:

The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize at the center of the universe dwells the Great Spirit and that its center is really everywhere; it is within each of us.

Leaving San Francisco on the ferry on Friday

Evening sky that night with a crescent moon resting to the right

Posted on July 17, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Trust

I’ve been going through old journals and keeping and tossing.

I came across a sweet memory. A hummingbird flew into a friend’s house, and to guide him or her back out, she filled glasses with water, and put a flower in each one, and set them in a path to the open door, and out the hummingbird went.

There is such kindness in the world.

Last night, I watched the documentary, Going Clear, about Scientology. It’s shocking and important to see how a cult develops when we hand our power and inner knowing over to another. Instead we need to trust what we know, and feeling within, follow the vases filled with flowers that guide our way.

An egret comes closer and struts by so I can see how it’s done!

Checking the brakes before a downhill launch

And back up the hill – muscle power rules

Posted on July 10, 2023July 10, 2023 by Cathy Edgett

Branching, Branched

I’ve now cleaned everything out of one room except the moveable bookshelves. The closet is empty and now when I speak, the room echoes. Nothing catches or holds the vibrations of my words.

I take that inside. What if I’m not holding onto memories, especially judgments and/or grudges? I feel I need some anchoring within, some awareness of my travels, connections, and pilgrimages, so I can respond with the wisdom of lessons learned through experience, and yet when is it too much? When is there a need to open and cleanse?

How much do I need to hold onto to feel connected and safe?

Might I choose to be like a bird with the warmth of a nest and the ability to fly through a sky bracketed with branches like shelves? What wisdom does the bird harvest from grasses and leaves?