Autumn Light

Trees become bare as spider webs form revealing new lines intersecting, augmenting, and defining space.   

Reflecting on this year, I realize four friends lost their husbands, and another lost his wife.  They were in my age range so it brings impermanence even more deeply into awareness.  The gift of breathing dips in and expands out.  I’m gratefully here with leaves changing as camellia and iris bloom.

Br. David Steindel-Rast:

In the continuous flow of blessing our heart finds meaning and rest.

Mt. Tam

This is a beautiful tribute to Mount Tamalpais and the past. I’ve ridden my bike up and down the railroad grade many times. I hadn’t realized the train track was even less wide. Enjoy!

Wonder and Commitment

I’ve been enjoying time with my three year old grandchild.  Seeing through his eyes and imagination is stimulation, gratitude, and blessing. 

As the political scene deepens, I’m with these words of Nelson Mandela.

It is never my custom to use words lightly. If twenty-seven years in prison have done anything to us, it was to use the silence of solitude to make us understand how precious words are and how real speech is in its impact on the way people live and die.

Reverence

Yesterday I was at our local native plant nursery, a place to be with sculptures, fountains, plants, and bees.

Robin Wall Kimmerer:

Paying attention is a form of reciprocity with the living world.

 

Flow

Rise

Gather

Slither and Slide

Glide, side by side

Connecting

Yesterday we took the Sausalito ferry to “the city” for one of the birthday celebrations for our three year old grandson.  Circus  Bella was a treat, a generous creation and abundance of love and fun, offered by donation.   Check it out:

https://www.circusbella.org

View of San Francisco from Sausalito on a foggy day

Angel Island

Our Planet

I’ve been with the words of William Shatner and his experience venturing into space.  He, too, like others, looked back at our planet with wonder.  It’s such a precious jewel.

I’ve been meditating outside these days, inside, too, but this morning was outside wrapped in fog, with the hooting of an owl leading to caws of crows and the shriek of a hawk.  Somebody scrambled up the redwood tree.

More and more I find myself settling into the wonders of this world of which I’m part and whole, form and non-form, life and death.  

Chief Crowfoot:

What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.

The Blue Angels flew over our house on Sunday – a trial run to see if they could do the show, but the fog closed in and the show was cancelled.. I didn’t have my camera when they flew over, so when I got it, I caught only this – enough!.

The full moon Sunday night with Jupiter and her moons

Neighborhood Block Party

We’ve lived here on a non county maintained road for 45 years.  When we moved in, many of our neighbors had built their homes here at the end of World War II, and were the age of our parents.  The land was sacred; the Coast Miwok had lived and thrived here, and now people who knew war and left it behind, came here to raise their children in the serenity of nature, connection, and peace.

Now, those people have passed on but in some cases, their children, now my age, retain their childhood home.  Last night the neighborhood block party was continued by a son and his wife, and yet the spirits of the parents were there in the generosity of hosting. The set-up was the same, the food, and many of the people, though now older. Where before there were children running around, including ours, now there were only two, though the neighborhood is changing and there are children around.

This seemed a gathering of the elderly though our spirits are young. Maturing gives wisdom and the focus of much of the conversation was on gratitude, gratitude for life and health, for what continues whether we are physically here or not.

One woman spoke of how she and her sister cared for their mother in her home until her death.  She didn’t want Hospice so they administered morphine which was frightening because if they spilled it, their mother would be in pain.  Her mother requested they wash and prepare her body.  The woman said how hard it was and yet she was grateful too.

I haven’t had that experience, and wouldn’t choose to have my children wash my body but I respect the reverence in it, the way of saying goodbye to what the spirit no longer needs and leaves behind.

Several people talked about their chickens.  I didn’t know that hens lay eggs in accordance with the light, and for only 18 months to two years.  In the spring, more roosters hatch than hens, and that reverses in the fall.  There must be a reason for that though I don’t know it. If you want eggs, you want more hens than roosters, though I learned roosters also fill the soup pot. The chicken we buy in the store is young, eight weeks or so, to keep it tender.

We spoke of how we love living here.  For many their children live far away now and so the parents “think” they should move, but the land holds us here. Our roots twine with the hills and critters, and oak, redwood, and bay trees.

We walked home, each carrying a goodie bag, put together by the hosts.  It was all so sweet, and I felt then and I feel now, I’ve been to, and still am, in the reverence of gathering we call church, temple, tepee, tent, flower, tree, mosque.

The fog is in, which may affect today’s flight of the Blue Angels. Tomorrow is Indigenous People’s Day. We honor the past with presence and awareness of integrating change.

Mingyur Rinpoche: Compassion is the spontaneous wisdom of the heart.

The fog coming in yesterday afternoon

Autumn

Yesterday, before time with my grandchild, I stopped at Filoli Gardens to celebrate Fall.  The name comes from the motto of the former owner, Bourn.  FIght for a just cause, LOve your fellow man. LIve a good life.

Meanwhile today, the Blue Angels are thundering overhead while birds circle in the sky proclaiming a quiet superiority.

Motto

History

Peeking through to the house

Formal Gardens

Rustic Seating

Harvest Time

Plants and Critters share the richness of the land

Informal Garden

Reflecting

In meditation today I think of my ancestors, all the way back to Neanderthal and Cro Magnon and before.  Each month is sacred, but I, one son, and my grandson were born in this month, so, for me, there is an extra preciousness.  Leaves change color and fall, and I recognize we are moving  toward November when the veil between the living and the dead is thin. 

Today, eyes slightly open, I saw the oak tree outside the window shaking. First one squirrel and then another, and another were running up and down shaking the branches of the tree like a wild and crazy breeze.  Then, they’d pause to eat an acorn, then scurry along.

I was reminded of a poem from my childhood from The Book House.  

Whisky, Frisky

Whisky, frisky,

Hippity hop.

Up he goes

To the tree top!

Whirly, twirly,

‘Round and ’round.

Down he scampers

To the ground.

Furly, curly,

What a tail!

Tall as a feather,

Broad as a sail.

Where’s his supper?

In a shell.

Snappy, cracky,

Out it fell.

Pumpkin Patch

What’s real?

Allowing

This morning I’m enchanted with eyes opening and closing, with the depth and texture in eyeball and eyelid, the meeting and departure – relationship. 

I’m with these words of Anne Lamott:

Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.

Fog slides over the ridge like an eyelid