I woke in the night and rose to meditate.  My life has been busier than I prefer and I could feel the weight in the bone dwelling over my eyes. I stayed with the weight, sensing and touching the seven bones that come together to surround and support the orbit of each eye.  

I knew there were seven but this morning I check their names.  What a list.

  • Frontal bone.
  • Zygomatic bone.
  • Maxillary bone.
  • Sphenoid bone.
  • Ethmoid bone.
  • Palatine bone.
  • Lacrimal bone.

Knowing those bones come together to protect each eye, I sense all that goes on between my ears. I cleanse in the abundance I am, and offer intention for abundance to swell through the world like waves.

There’s more than enough for all.


Rain pounds down and enclosed, I repeat my journey through words that inspire me.


Your grief for what you’ve lost lifts a mirror

up to where you are bravely working.

Expecting the worst, you look, and instead,

here’s the joyful face you’ve been wanting to see.

Your hand opens and closes and opens and closes.

If it were always a fist or always stretched open,

you would be paralysed.

Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding,

the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated

as birdwings.

– Rumi

Be still like a mountain, flow like a river”

~ Lao Tze

At a certain point, you say to the woods, to the sea, to the mountains, the world, Now I am ready. Now I will stop and be wholly attentive. You empty yourself and wait, listening.

– Annie Dillard

Dreams come true; without that possibility, nature would not incite us to have them.

– John Updike


The rain has come again.  This is a moist year.

I read about Bernd Heinrich, a scientist and naturalist who lives in a cabin in Maine and observes those with whom he shares the land and gives them to us in his books.

I choose among his books and order Life Everlasting: The Animal Way of Death.

There can be a richness to the aging process, this continually grateful reception of breath, each inhalation a gift, each exhalation a letting go, and merging with the wider world of which we are part.  

Each day, my intention is to sink more clearly into living as a beginner, as babies do.  

Old and young meet in the center, centered in gratitude, gratitude for living that is always new, as both accept, receive, release, and continue to transform.  

May we all be well in this process of expanding our ability to give and receive.

Looking up through branches, winter bare

Serenity and Splashing Joy!

I met with a friend yesterday and we discussed the aging process.  When I go in for my annual physical now, I have to draw a clock face, and then draw the hands to a time I am told.  It’s felt really silly to me until I read the poem below. I never recognized the complexity in “reading” a clock. I think I remember learning, and I remember teaching my sons.  I wonder what it is for children today that so much is digital. Maybe they can’t read a clock face. Maybe they “read” in other ways.  

I remember the first time I watched my young niece jump a unicorn in a computer game.  I could tell she understood the spatial aspects of the screen in a way I didn’t feel I ever could.

Yesterday my son, his wife, and I discussed screen time for babies and what it might do to do their brains.  It is suggested that a baby not view a screen for the first two years, and some philosophies say much later than that.  I enjoy Face Time with my grandson. Some say that isn’t screen time. Certainly there is a different response when he sees me in person.  All senses are involved, not just sight and sound. I’m round, dimensional, complex, complete.

Because I’m spending the night in Menlo Park, I participated in my grandchild’s bath time.  He kicked and splashed and the more we laughed and applauded, the more he laughed and splashed.  The feedback was clear. I am loved and I am love. In my immersion in air and water, playing with both, and these funny big people who think I’m the most marvelous being in the world which, and I take the narrative back, he is and we are.

Allow yourself to be as appreciated as raucously and vigorously as a baby in the bath.  Splash Joy!

The Clock
by Victoria Chang

The Clock—died on June 24, 2009
and it was untimely. How many
times my father has failed the clock
Once I heard a scientist with
Alzheimer’s on the radio, trying to
figure out why he could no longer
draw a clock. It had to do with
the superposition of three types.
The hours represented by 1-12,
the minutes where a 1 no longer
represents 1 but 5, and a 2 now
represents 10, then the second hand
that measures 1 to 60. I sat at the
stoplight and thought of the clock, its
perfect circle and its superpositions,
all the layers of complication on a
plane of thought, yet the healthy
read the clock in one single instant
without a second thought. I think
about my father and his lack of first
thoughts, how every thought is a
second or third or fourth thought,
unable to locate the first most
important thought. I wonder about
the man on the radio and how far his
brain has degenerated since. Marvel
at how far our brains allow language
to wander without looking back but
knowing where the pier is. If you
unfold an origami swan, and flatten
the paper, is the paper sad because
it has seen the shape of the swan or
does it aspire towards flatness, a life
without creases? My father is the
paper. He remembers the swan but
can’t name it. He no longer knows
the paper swan represents an animal
swan. His brain is the water the
animal swan once swam in, holds
everything, but when thawed, all the
fish disappear. Most of the words we
say have something to do with fish.
And when they’re gone, they’re gone.

The Clock” by Victoria Chang, from the forthcoming OBIT by Victoria Chang, copyright © 2020 Copper Canyon Press.

Watching Water Come to Boil

We have a new pot to heat water for our morning coffee. We like to watch water drip through a cone so we each make our own cup.

We were sad as we watched the old pot lose memory and consistency but after another pour of luke-warm water while knowing the pot was doing its best we now have a sleek new model.

This one keeps a digital accounting as the water rises in heat, so one can  begin the day mesmerized by the rising numbers until at 200 degrees, a beep, beep, beep.  It’s true that one becomes more easily entertained with age. It’s a return to childhood, a return to meeting the excitement of change, a world that is always, every moment, vibrating and new.  

Steve and I took Uber or Lyft in and out of the city yesterday to meet one son and his wife.  Our returning driver lives on a houseboat in Sausalito and transports boats back and forth, so recently brought a boat from Tahiti to Hawaii to here.  He described many an adventure, but then, each moment is that. He sails the seas, and I watch water heat.  

I’m traveling a wee bit south today and spending the night down there, so I’ll see how computer connects in a new place.  My computer tends to resist change, and I respect that, so I’m open to what computer needs. We never know and perhaps vibrational inconsistency is what moves our heart back and forth in a dance delighting in, and stimulated by how and what we meet. Enjoy your Monday, the start of a new week.


Day Comes to Light

Crows give notice, caw the first call.  Then, smaller birds begin to tweet.  It’s a new day, a new moment, and I’m with the words of William Blake.

“The tree which moves some to tears of joy is in the eyes of others only a green thing which stands in the way… As a man is, so he sees.” 

Notice how you’re seeing today.  Hone perception and Be!

Early Morning Light

Welcoming New Light

Feng Shui translates to “wind-water” in English and is about energy circulation and flow.  We harmonize with our environment, feel where energy is stuck. Last night I couldn’t sleep so rose and meditated in a newly cleansed room.  I could feel the energetic shift in the room, the opening, welcoming shift in me.

I’ve removed two standing bookcases as well as two shelves that were attached to the wall.  Artwork is down and only a few items returned, so the room echoes, and in that echoing, I wonder what comes to me now.

The full moon may also have affected my ability to sleep.  I sat in the dark, meditated, and sensed. Then the rain came.  I felt a need to be awake to witness the weather, earth, and moon in their shifts, echoed in me.  

I thought it was the Hunter’s full moon so meditated on predator and prey and Thich Nhat Hanh’s wonderful poem, “Please Call Me by My True Names”, where he explores and explains how we are everyone and everything, both predator and prey.

This morning I learn the January full moon is Wolf moon.  The wolves may have been howling, but I didn’t hear them last night.  Though I couldn’t see the moon I felt it’s light.