There are many versions of the “Is that so?” story but the gist is that whatever happens there’s a positive and negative to it, depending on interpretation and so the point is to ride balanced up and down in the middle of the waves.

Perhaps watching waves for days creases the breathing like an envelope allowing a container of shared connection and exchange.

I am home now, feeling rested, gentle, and peaceful.  We’ve gone from 95 degrees last Monday to wetness and the heater running today, from airy tops to sweaters, all in a week.

Driving down the coast this last week, we passed a multitude of pumpkin patches, and now the air is filled with the scent of fall, with that tingled lift to drop into a season rich with celebration, gathering, and reflection, a deeper knowing of the ocean and its waves.

The irony here is that I need to nest ever more clearly in “Is that so?” since I’m having major problems with WordPress and am struggling to post.  My computer locks up and I go through a bunch of steps and so I’ll see how the day unfolds.

On another note, when I was on the shuttle this weekend going along the coast from one place to another, I pointed out to the shuttle driver the cairns of stones, the piles so carefully constructed and balanced by tourists on the beach.  He responded that the stones hold the beach in place; they are homes for little creatures. At night, the locals place the stones back, as much as is possible, to where they belong.

I thought of how we want to create and influence our environment, but it’s important to note when it’s intrusive, not needed, destructive, or too much.  It’s why I study Sensory Awareness, to balance in place, this moment, now.

And now, in this moment, I post, considering how to balance the stones of my life in a cairn of coming together and falling apart, always with the awareness of balancing acceptance and surrender in a philosophy of: “Is that so?”

I’m by the sea in bunny mode.  Friday, I bought a bunny for upcoming grandchild, and today I see one outside our room at Spanish Bay nibbling on the lawn.  The Velveteen Rabbit brought to life accompanies me. All is gentle here, tender. There’s something about the ocean and coastal trees, a scent that moves in and settles, gives a sense of flying with pelicans and gulls.  

I’m by the ocean. With photos, I’ll share. Ah, and then there’s connectivity, which is obvious where land meets sea, but less clear when swirling through the air.

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The birds are singing as though it’s spring, and perhaps it is.  I had dreams of Halloween, and then I woke to a symphony outside my open door.  I looked out to rose-pink and thought of the moments, each one divided into seasons when we notice, when we’re awake.

Yesterday when I walked toward the bay, I saw a seal frolicing and doing somersaults, but when I sat on the rocks to watch, no seal was visible, only two gulls sitting with me, and the magic in the water shifting, moving, just like all that makes up living in me.

Gratitude is a symphony, and I sit lifted on the chords as I ground on the garbage truck’s deep rumbling as it gathers and recycles what’s been used.

Today I watched this egret through a fence.  He/she’s the white spot in the middle of the metal square. A bulldozer bulldozed nearby, very near, and yet, the egret was calm and content to continue its look for food.

Then I saw this vine climbing up two poles.  Nature is amazing. We are nature. Our democracy is threatened right now and we can ignore what distracts and keep climbing toward the nourishment of the sun, which when the skies aren’t polluted, we see. Clean air. Yum!

I wake in darkness, absorb the taste and textures pored with reflection. Then, rising, walking outside, I receive the morning pour, the ridge touched with light, lit; like a match, crows caw.

Around 4 million people, many of them students, but all ages, protested around the world yesterday.  They gathered to speak in protection of the planet on which we live, an organism that needs to function successfully in order for us to survive.   

On June 20, 1979, Democratic president Jimmy Carter had 32 solar panels installed on the White House roof to use the rays of the sun to heat water.

When Republican Ronald Reagan took office in 1981, he immediately had them removed.  

The United States has produced more emissions than any other country since the start of the industrial age and yet we have a president now rolling back 85 environmental regulations.

Reading the list makes me sick, so maybe we’ll expire in an ingestion of disgust so it won’t matter that our air is unbreathable and our water polluted.

Meanwhile, 16 year old Greta Thunberg has stepped out of the classroom to speak.  Our leader has risen, our Joan of Arc.

Each of us is a process; our planet is a process, a “systematic series of actions directed to some end”.  We’re not helpless; we’re here with a purpose, a community of interdependence stimulated and programmed to evolve.

On Wednesday, Greta said this to members of Congress in the House Ways and Means Committee.

“This is not the time and place for dreams, this is the time to wake up. This is the moment in history we need to be wide awake.”

“This is the biggest crisis humanity has ever faced, you cannot solve a crisis without treating it as one. Stop telling people that everything will be fine. As it looks now, everything won’t be fine.”

“If it continues like that we’re not going to get anywhere, actually transform words into action — the action we need now.”

And on this beautiful day, as we in the Northern hemisphere tilt toward fall, the leaves are changing color, preparing to drop, and in that letting go, enrich and protect the roots in the ground.  They show us the way. We can drop into awareness of the crisis, leaving the branches of support open and clear. We’re led by nature, and the natural processes that have given us Greta. She inspires us to act.

It’s Global Climate Strike Day.  It’s beautiful here. Mother Earth is offering her support for the day, the early morning light touched with gold.

Yesterday I walked in twilight through the forest duff of Old Mill Park to the Mill Valley library which looks out from full length windows onto redwood trees.

That might be enough for an evening but I was there to hear two poets read.  

First, Matthew Siegel read, and then,  Padraig O Tuama, an Irish poet, who headed Corrymeela for years.

Unfamiliar with it, I checked out their website: https://www.corrymeela.org

Corrymeela is Northern Ireland’s oldest peace and reconciliation organisation. We began before “The Troubles” and continue on in Northern Ireland’s changing post–conflict society.  The organisation grew organically from the original Community members, and today almost 40 full–time staff and dozens of volunteers work alongside the eleven thousand people who spend time in our residential centre every year. 

Following the reading, there was a question and answer period.  

Both men agreed that Ilya Kaminski is the poet of a century.  If you haven’t read his poetry, do.

They spoke of knowing and exploring the one thing, that one thing that each of us comes back to when we write to explore, discover, and share.  

Padraid said, Poems have a certain hunger around which they circle.  

He also said spirituality comes from the breath, that language helps us breathe, so write what people can turn to,  do things with words that help us breathe, then finalize a poem with a spark or a demand. I sit with that, no small task, though perhaps trusting the breath, it is.

Naturally politics had to come up when an Irish poet is in the room.  Right, now the world is twisted on arrogance. As you might imagine, he didn’t have anything good to say about Britain, the Tories, or Brexit.  He called the explorer Captain James Cook, a murderer. He says Ireland didn’t have a potato famine; they had a policy famine.  

They were asked if cell phones are destroying writing.  They pointed out that texting is writing. We send emails.  We are writing, and writing is about attention, and that is the point, attention.  

They both agreed they are inspired by this poem by Rilke, and by Emily Dickinson, of course.

Widening Circles

Rainer Maria Rilke

I live my life in widening circles

that reach out across the world.

I may not complete this last one

but I give myself to it.

I circle around God, around the primordial tower.

I’ve been circling for thousands of years

and I still don’t know: am I a falcon,

a storm, or a great song?

Book of Hours, I 2

That leads me to Jane Hirshfield’s poem, the perfect poem for this day. 

May our lungs breathe in the clean air of fact.

ON THE FIFTH DAY

by Jane Hirshfield

On the fifth day

the scientists who studied the rivers

were forbidden to speak

or to study the rivers.

The scientists who studied the air

were told not to speak of the air,

and the ones who worked for the farmers

were silenced,

and the ones who worked for the bees.

Someone, from deep in the Badlands,

began posting facts.

The facts were told not to speak

and were taken away.

The facts, surprised to be taken, were silent. 

Now it was only the rivers

that spoke of the rivers,

and only the wind that spoke of its bees,

while the unpausing factual buds of the fruit trees

continued to move toward their fruit.

The silence spoke loudly of silence,

and the rivers kept speaking,

of rivers, of boulders and air. 

In gravity, earless and tongueless,

the untested rivers kept speaking.

Bus drivers, shelf stockers,

code writers, machinists, accountants,

lab techs, cellists kept speaking.

They spoke, the fifth day,

of silence.

Today I lean back, lean back to receive.  Physically and psychologically, I’ve felt the momentum in leaning back to then, when called, lean forward, and rise.

I’m entranced with Greta Thunberg, a 16 year old climate activist claiming her autism on the spectrum to Aspberger’s, as her Superpower.

She is clear, no dissonance on what she knows is true, and she leads the way.

Friday, September 20th, is a day to lean, rise, and stand on the bench of her example, as we rock connection with the waves of change.