Imagination

Last night I opened my book Breast Strokes to a day when I was walking with 3 year old Zach who informed me he was an airplane. His arms spread, he flew over a speed bump, and said, “Look at that cloud.”

I sit with that now, knowing we can be or do anything. 

A friend sent me the website of an amazing photographer Jay Tamang who is from Nepal and works at the Mill Valley Whole Foods as a shining light.

I’m struck by his words accompanying a photo from the Merced River, Yosemite.

The moment I arrive in Yosemite, something shifts inside me. It is not just the sight of it — it is the feeling. Like the valley itself reaches out and says: you are home. I don’t rush here. I settle quietly by the bank of the Merced River, where the water runs cold and clear and ancient, and I let the stillness take over.

My mind begins to travel — not forward, but back. Back through centuries, back through the very story of this earth.

I look at the granite walls rising around me and I wonder: what did this place look like when the first Native Americans walked this valley? They were not here by accident. They were called here — the way all seekers are called to places greater than themselves. They understood what took me years of photography to learn: that nature does not belong to us. We belong to it.

I go back further still. I imagine this valley buried beneath a mile of glacial ice, the great granite domes pressing upward with unstoppable force. El Capitan. Half Dome. The Cathedral Rocks. They were not built. They were revealed. The mountain always knew what it was. It only needed time to show the world.

Sitting by the Merced, I feel the smallness of my own life — and I am grateful for it. Here, I feel more alive than anywhere else on earth. More at peace. More certain that everything is unfolding exactly as it should.

We are all, like the granite, still being revealed.

You can view his work here: tamangphotography.com

My photo. What do you see in the rock and sand? What touches you, and reveals?
My photo of St. Francis nesting in a section of my yard

Memorial Day Weekend

This is our stay at home weekend as we honor those who gave their lives for freedom.  As a child, we often drove from Iowa to Indiana, and put flowers on family graves.  My uncle put flags on the graves of those who served.  

This is from Heather Cox Richardson today:

President Donald J. Trump’s proposed triumphal arch would sit at a rotary on the Virginia side of the Arlington Memorial Bridge between Arlington National Cemetery and the Lincoln Memorial in Washington, D.C.

The proposed arch obscures the Lincoln Memorial, built to honor the president who steered the country safely through the Civil War, but perfectly frames Arlington House, the mansion built by enslaved Americans and once owned by Confederate General Robert E. Lee. The arch does not frame the nation’s honored dead, but frames instead the home of the man who led the armies of the Confederacy that killed them.

How did things become so skewed?  

Heart
Intricacy

Sanity

How do we stay sane amidst the cruelty, tragedy, theft, greed, and lies of the Trump administration? 

My grandson has been staying with us, so I’m with the beauty of this world.  Together, he and I watch the light change in the sky as we observe the squirrels, birds, and trees.

Walking briskly to the Presidio playground
Downtown San Francisco from the Presidio Tunnel Tops
Jacket as a parachute
Flowers everywhere
Joy in the flight of a paper airplane, one of many made in the last few days.

Living

Shunyru Suzuki: 

In the Beginner’s Mind, there are many possibilities.  In the expert’s mind, there are few. 

Today as I was folding sheets, I remembered going through radiation treatment in 2006. The man who handed us our robe always made sure it was warm and said a prayer for each of us.  I think of how we do anything, is how we do everything.  

In that, is fulfillment and completeness, wholeness.

Nisargadatta Maharaj:

Don’t hold on, that is all. The world is made of rings. The hooks are all yours. Make straight your hooks and nothing can hold you.  

At the Hiller Aviation Museum, even bears can fly!!
Grandson’s new puppy – Life!

Miracles

Today I read Wislawa Szymborska’s poem “Miracle Fair”.

The poem begins with:

The commonplace miracle: 

that so many common miracles take place. 

And she begins a list, a way for each of us to view, expand, and embrace what comes to us as we meander through night and day.

A miracle that’s lost on us: 

the hand actually has fewer than six fingers 

but still it’s got more than four. 

A miracle, just take a look around: 

the inescapable earth. 

An extra miracle, extra and ordinary: 

the unthinkable 

can be thought. 

~ Wislawa Szymborska ~

I balance that with the Israel attack on a Gaza hospital killing 20, including journalists and medics.  One needs fingers and toes to count the number of dead.  One needs a see-saw to balance joy and sorrow, gratitude and grief, as we center in the heart that holds it all.  

My son sends me photos of his friend, a red-shouldered hawk, he sees on his morning walks.

Morning breakfast the other day
Hunting on the ground this morning
Lift-off
A closer look

Swirling

Today in my meditation, I saw and felt the day turn to light as the earth turns on its axis and we move around the sun. Yesterday, I got my hair cut and asked my hairdresser why one side flips up and the other side curls under.  I learned that our hair spirals in a circle around our head, each of us with a swirl as individual as our fingerprint.

I’m swirling in movement today, anchored in the cord of impermanence, change.

Growth on the trunk of a tree
Contemplation on a Slant
Reflecting the turn to fall

Shadow

At the park, I saw a little boy, perhaps two or three, laughing and waving, but I couldn’t see anyone there.  Then I realized he was playing with his shadow, waving, laughing and dancing with his own image.  If only we could greet all aspects of ourselves with such joy and glee, no hiding, only reception and awareness of all that’s right here for us to see, receive, and be.  



Light and Dark
Dancing our heart like a kite at the end of our arms
Receiving and being with sun and shade

The Elasticity of Feeling

A friend tells me of a friend who with no hope and severe continuing deterioration of the brain drinks from a doctor-prescribed bottle of death.  I don’t know him, and yet he is the age of my son, and I feel the grief of those who love him, and a deep carving inside.

It is said sorrow carves deeply into us like a log carved out to make a boat and so we float on the love grief brings when we let ourselves feel this boundary between the preciousness of life here and what comes when we let go to a wider float as the boat dissolves.

Ice plant growing on rock
Driftwood gathered on the beach
Flight

Landing

In Sensory Awareness, we often ask ourselves or another: Have you landed?

And usually I feel how much more landing can occur, how much more “coming down” and feeling energy, movement, and exchange there can be.  How present am I?

Today I’m with transitions, noticing when I walk through an entry or doorway.  I pause and contemplate as I invite immersion to journey within me as I enter a new room, a new place.  Moving from indoors to out, or outdoors to in, is revelatory as to integrating liquidity and solidity in space.

I try to avoid politics here but lately it seems to require even more landing as I try to digest how close Trump came to a coup, and how even now he continues to try to destroy this democracy.

From Heather Cox Richardson today:

The extremists are bolstered by former president Donald Trump, who posted on his social media platform today that the Republicans in Congress “can and must defund all aspects of Crooked Joe Biden’s weaponized Government…. This is also the last chance to defund these political prosecutions against me and other Patriots. They failed on the debt limit, but they must not fail now. Use the power of the purse and defend the Country!” 

Experts say shutting down the government would not, in fact, end the former president’s legal troubles, but he is actually doing more than that here: he is trying to assert dominance over the country. As Representative Adam Schiff (D-CA) said: “Let’s be clear about what the former president is saying here. House Republicans should shut down the government unless the prosecutions against him are shut down. He would deny paychecks to millions of working families & devastate the US economy, all in the service of himself.”

It is for each of us to continue landing within what we know is true as destructiveness and lies dissolve in the swelling oceans of truth.

Circling
A deer in our lower yard
One planet we share