When a friend sent me the six ways people were coping with “shelter in place”, I realized why my blog posts have been all over the map. I’ve been flopping between all six things, more unsettled than ever.
- I’m sleeping more.
- Sometimes I feel out of body and I’m not even sure what space is.
- I’m pacing.
- I’m keeping things clean though not redecorating.
- I’m creatively cooking, going through recipes and what’s on my shelves, figuring this is a time to return to favorite dishes and ignore the calorie count.
- For some, who’ve always been at home, there is no change. Though I thought I was mainly at home, this has allowed me to see I’m out and about more than I knew. It shows me if I am to experience the deep sink this unexpected retreat is meant to bring, I have a ways to go. Evolved, I am not.
Today, Aurelia Priotto St. John, a friend and colleague who lives in Italy, sent this to the Rosen Method Bodywork and Movement community. She said I could share it if I thought it would help people. Since it helped me, I’m sharing it with you. For me, it was helpful to know I wasn’t the only one struggling to understand what was happening. I couldn’t take it in, and now slowly the seep is anchoring roots.
Yesterday I wrote a letter to my Movement students and also to my Bodywork clients. “yesterday”, I say, because it took time these last 2 weeks to realize what was happening, to let us be touched by a different kind of reality that our country was entering.
Personally, I felt the need to stop and to let this fact impact me. An unknown silence had suddenly filled up our squares and streets, NO movement of people, busses, cars, No sounds in the air.
Something very deep and strong was passing, is passing and touching our beings.
It became so clear there was, there is nothing I could “fix” — a deep feeling of respect, something beyond what I can “know” and that a pause was so needed for me to, little by little, grasp what was going on, to be informed by this event.
It took awhile to take in what was and is happening. It took a while to allow this change to penetrate the awareness and wake up new questions and meanings for our life.
Little by little this penetration has had time to enter us and to connect us to a deeper level.
Aurelia suggests we listen to music, a “Sacred Hymn in C Minor”, allow it to enter and lead us, allow our body to find its way to respond, like a “moving prayer”. Move as a child would, “free from judgment and expectations”.
I’ve been at my computer more than usual which is saying a great deal, but I see how many are reaching to connect with meditation and a need to talk. We, as intelligent organisms respond, and create new ways to stay in touch and evolve.
Meanwhile, honor the flop as you adjust moment by moment to new and trusting ways of being. We’re in this together – one planet – one scent – one breath.