Compassion

I’ve been in pausing mode, cocooning.  I’ve been with transition and how we meet what comes.

A friend has been going through chemo.  The doctors thought if the chemo could shrink the tumor, he could have surgery but at this point he is so weakened, that the question seems moot, and so how do we meet this?  How do we meet what comes?

This morning my heart is heavy and my eyes are filled with tears.  My heart feels like a breast dripping and pumping milk into the mouth of a baby who sucks to live, and the world sucks now on my heart, on all hearts for the milk of compassion. I suck there too.  Compassion.  May we all feed there!

What do we make with our grains and beaches of sand?

From Robert Aitken, “The Nature of the Precepts”

The Dharma is the mind, not merely the brain, or the human spirit. . . . It is vast and fathomless, pure and clear, altogether empty, and charged with possibilities. It is the unknown, the unnameable, from which and as which all beings come forth.

Abundance

I just learned a friend passed away in the most beautiful of ways.  Ah, surrender, as the plum leaves the branch in my hand.  

Listening

I was out early this morning, watering quickly, though mindfully, as we are allowed to water by hand, especially before six.  Where it would have been light a month ago, it was dark, and the birds were still asleep. No chattering, just quiet, and stillness today. August is when birds molt, change feathers from summer to winter, so it usually is a quiet time.

Meanwhile I’m cleaning out books.  It’s my way to molt.  What feathers do I need to nourish in the dark?

In Harold Gatty’s book, Finding Your Way Without Map or Compass, I learn how to tune my senses to my environment.   He writes of a famous traveler and explorer, F. Spencer Chapman, who was “kayaking along the east coast of Greenland with an Eskimo hunting party”. 

Suddenly the fog came in, and visibility was nil. Though far from home, they were able to keep within sound of the shore.  Chapman worried how they would find the narrow entrance to their home fjord but he writes: “The Eskimos seemed quite unperturbed … indeed they beguiled the time by singing verse after verse of their traditional songs and occasionally they threw their harpoons from sheer joie de vivre.”

An hour of paddling later, they turned into the entrance to their home.

How did they do it?  Chapman wrote: 

“All along this coast, there were snow buntings nesting, and each male bird … used to proclaim the ownership of his territory by singing his sweet little song from a conspicuous boulder.  Now each cock snow bunting had a slightly different song, and the Eskimos had learned to recognize each individual songster so that as soon as they picked out the notes of the bird who was nesting on the headland of their home fjord, they knew it was time to turn inshore.”

Ears and mouths along the shore

Adaptation

We’re back to masks indoors.  I actually like wearing a mask, feel safer.  I have every kind, super protection and lovely cloth that probably do little for safety but were fun.  Now, I’m going for the protective ones.  Again, as I read Heather Cox Richardson with real concerns that a few want to turn our country into a dictatorship, I come back to the essential nature and importance of these words by Cheri Huber.

We know in our more lucid moments that the answer to life cannot be self-hatred. If you did nothing all day long other than practice being as kind as possible to everything and everyone you encounter—starting with you, of course—you would live a truly extraordinary life. 

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Tender

I rise, embraced.  Where I live, the temperature never rose above 70 degrees the whole month of July so it’s been a cool summer now unfolding into fall.

These words by Saint Francis de Sales guide me today: 

You learn to speak by speaking, to study by studying, to run by running, to work by working; in just the same way, you learn to love by loving.

Morning Sky to the East
Morning Sky looking South

Ribbons

I’ve been with the swaying of the kelp forest at Monterey Bay Aquarium and the fish moving through.  The sea gulls are raucous this time of year as their youngsters grow into their own ways to move through, and on, water, land, and sky. All of this flows through and reverberates in me.

This morning I read about a man who sits on a bench each morning to watch the sunrise and talk to those who walk by.  He listens and has become a therapist for those who come to be with him. I read about a 99 year old woman who because of the pandemic becomes best friends with the two year old next door.

There are ribbons of connection flowing through us like ribbons of kelp.

Fred Rogers said: If only you could sense how important you are to the lives of those you meet, how important you can be to people you may never even dream of. There is something of yourself that you leave at every meeting with another person.

Tide Pools

Impermanence

When we were in Monterey recently, I was enchanted with the aquarium. I’d never seen anchovies circling in the Kelp Forest before. Now, I read that they’re not always there. These will be eaten by bigger fish within two weeks.

That morning, I’d been enchanted with this sculpture. After seeing the anchovies, I knew what it represented.

Anemone waiting for the tide to come

Abundance

Living here, we celebrate the summer dance of fog as it prances, flows, and blows in and out.

Early this morning, sitting outside, Steve heard the fog horn, and then, nearby, an answering owl, and in response, a little further away, another owl, and then, a third.

Heads bowed today!

Heroes

I’m watching the Capitol police officers testify on the January 6 insurrection.  It’s shocking.  It’s shocking and a must-see for every person in this country.

The men speaking are shaking.  I’m shaking.  That anyone, especially those who were protected by these men, could deny this investigation is again, shocking.

It was an insurrection, and without the courage of these men, we would be a different country.  May those who organized and encouraged this be punished.   Those who protected us will always be haunted.  We should all be haunted by how close we came to losing our democracy.

Nature

We were in Monterey this weekend with the rhythm of the tides. Here are anemones at low tide Saturday morning.