We still “shelter in place” though this morning I rose early and walked around my neighborhood. No one was out; all are tucked.
I wonder if there is a collective fear I feel since all in my realm are fine, even though we are all separately tucked.
My mantra continues to be the words of Charlotte Selver, my teacher of Sensory Awareness. I first met Charlotte in 1993. Over and over again, she said, “Every moment is a moment.” “Every moment can be cherished.”
Sensory Awareness carried me through chemotherapy and radiation. I return again and again to her words.
“What we allow of sensitivity is closely associated with love and innocence. A person who is self-conscious cannot allow.”
I wonder if the banding together that is now required as we figure out how to share and function as a community is allowing us to return to love and innocence. We don’t know what’s coming but we do know we’re in this together. I isolate to protect others, to allow the pandemic to come to calm. I’m not alone in this. I have my place to stand and rest, my place to cultivate peace.
Charlotte continues, “It must come out of the direct contact of our real inner connection.”
I continue to reach within, to feel and allow. I trust what’s there to come forth in support.
Yesterday on the Sensory Awareness call, Stefan Laeng played the songs of blackbirds he’d recorded. I felt my heart sing in response.
Charlotte said: “There is a certain relationship which I have to have with my inner functioning – that of respect and that of wonder.”
I marvel at the functioning of the natural world, the world within me, and the world of which I’m part. Birds are singing and I hear their wings pulse as they fly. They are supported by the weight of movement and space in their structure. We share the air.