My first blog was a sharing and exploration of my journey through breast cancer treatment in 2005 and 2006. The book Breast Strokes came from the blog.
My second book was about the relationship between the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, a complex one for sure, as each of us is complex and when we have two women loving the same man, a man perceived differently by each, understanding and compassion come to the fore.
The third book, and the initial reason for this blog was my journey to Nepal in 1993 when I was 43. I wrote it without the journals I so meticulously kept while there, so I relied on memory, but sometime this year I discovered the journals, carefully wrapped and tucked away. I kept saying I’d go back through them, but then, there was always something “more important” to do but today, New Year’s resolutions connected to hands connected to heart, I step back into the trip.
My New Year’s intention is to post every day, and part of that will be a sharing of what I discover as I go back through journals from 27 years ago. Today, I realized that the theme of the book, Airing Out the Fairy Tale, and my life, and possibly yours, relates to the Zen koan, “Show me your original face before you were born.”
Vicki, Celeste, and I went to Nepal on a spiritual quest. We stayed in Kathmandu at 5000 feet to prepare. We flew into Lukla at 9000 feet, and from there we walked down to acclimate before we continued back up.
Today I’m reading of standing in line in Kathmandu on October 3, 1993, and it’s not really a line, but instead a cacophony of people anxious to get trekking permits. I saw that all those around us were young, and yet I felt young even though I was 43. Not intimated by age, I wrote, “Our spirits are high and so high we will go.”
Now, reflecting, I feel I touched my “original face” in Nepal. I was given the gift of understanding, a visceral immersion, elemental and original. It is said that all souls circle around Mount Everest, Sagarmatha in Sanskrit, and Chomolungma to the Tibetans, when they pass. My mother-in-law passed away when I was there, and now, this beginning of a new year, I honor those who’ve passed even as I release.
Peace resides with the Tides!