As I’ve shared, in preparing my eyes for cataract surgery, I’ve moved from 60 years of wearing contact lenses to wearing glasses so my eyes can return to their natural, and not a controlled state.

I’m realizing the gift of this as I sometimes view myself, as perhaps many of us do, as “fixed”, forgetting the movement and change we always are.  The earth is not standing still, and neither are we.

In this change, I have more awareness of my eyes and my way of seeing.  I understand the visual cortex is in the back of my head, by the occiput.  Those with myopia as I have may focus more upward there, elongate, and so now I allow changes in my eyes, in my way of seeing, feeling, and being.

We also balance in that area, so as I change my ability to see and perceive, my interaction with depth perception, I, at times, feel disoriented, unbalanced, even discombobulated.  Who am I with all these changes?

This is an exploration, and as I say a gift.  I feel a return to when I went through chemotherapy, not as exhausting, painful, or demanding, but certainly it is awareness, observation, feeling the space within open and close, the bones in my head open and close, the connections all through me of oneness in this world we share.

I trust in the experience of each unfolding moment.

Lin Jensen, “Molting”: 

Awakening arises in times of vulnerability and awkwardness between, before, and after where prior identities are canceled and anything is possible and nothing certain.

Alan Watts:

In Zen, mountains are mountains at first but then everything must fall apart before mountains can be mountains again.

Autumn light at Tennessee Valley

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