Reflecting

Yesterday afternoon I sat on the couch enjoying the dance of the fog as it moved in and out.   This morning we’re wrapped.

Last night I finished reading The Memoirs of Stockholm Sven by Nathaniel Ian Miller.  It was recommended and as I adventured in, I wasn’t clear why, and then I was drawn in to life in the far north and how even in seclusion, politics and boundaries intrude.

The narrator lives and survives in the Arctic, near the North Pole. He has moved there in a search for solitude.  He writes: 

“At first I watched the weather obsessively, for it moved, changed, and spoke with something like the speed I expected from the society of man.  But soon it became one seamless movement instead of a series of staccato events.”

“Now I merely took note of subtle changes.  Minute shifts in scent and stone. I felt that Eberhard, (his dog)  and I had found an even greater communion than ever, for now both of our minds were clear.”  

He has read the classics before but, “Now my brain was a rock-pool at low ebb, empty and brackish and yet perfectly shaped to welcome the incoming tide.”  

His house burns down. He builds a new one and says, “So the rock is abraded by storm, and thinks little of it.” 

I’m reminded of this poem by Octavio Paz.

Wind and Water and Stone

The water hollowed the stone,

the wind dispersed the water,

the stone stopped the wind.

Water and wind and stone. 

The wind sculpted the stone,

the stone is a cup of water,

The water runs off and is wind.

Stone and wind and water. 

The wind sings in its turnings,

the water murmurs as it goes,

the motionless stone is quiet.

Wind and water and stone. 

One is the other and is neither:

among their empty names

they pass and disappear,

water and stone and wind. 

~ Octavio Paz ~

(Translated by Mark Strand, The Collected Poems of Octavio Paz, 1957-1987)

John Muir wrote:

In every walk with nature, one receives far more than they seek.

I agree.

I also believe that we need a social network of support. 

From Writer’s Almanac today: 

On this day, President Lyndon Johnson signed the Social Security Act of 1965 into law, creating the Medicare and Medicaid programs. It was the country’s first national health insurance program.

The fog coming in yesterday afternoon

Nature

We have ⅓ of an acre, most of which we keep natural for our fellow creatures.  A part is fenced though to contain and protect a Japanese garden.  Yesterday afternoon we noted movement over the fence, and here is our new friend.

Camouflage

We have four maple trees with red leaves. When grandson was here, he asked how we painted the leaves red. The question made me even more appreciate the variety in nature’s palette.

Maple Leaves

This is the first, wildest, and wisest thing I know, that the soul exists, and that it is built entirely out of attention.

– Mary Oliver 

Home

We’ve been with our grandchild.  Being with a young child is a practice of meditation.   I watch the movement and openness in hands and feet and feel a response in me.  Fluidity.  

We read and climb.  We tuck, hide, peek, bounce, jump, glide and slide as we make trains both large and small.  We pick apples from their tree and eat them and leave some for the squirrels.  I’m entranced with what comes forth as we make songs on his suggestions, his mind rounding on all that surrounds.

I’m home now absorbing and integrating.  Mingyur Rinpoche offers an online course on meditation through Tergar.org. One son and I are enjoying the course on “Joy of Living”.   I’m currently with sound meditation.

Mingyur Rinpoche:

As long as you know you are hearing the sound, that is meditation.  

Awareness is always pure and pleasant.  

And there is Meister Eckhart: For the person who has learned to let go and let be, nothing can ever get in the way again.

Of course this is a practice, and yet pausing to listen and receive, I find myself pulsing with the universe, the heartbeat, the gong, the bell, the dance, the song.

Listening

Seeing Like a Child

Pythagoras: Astonishing!  Everything is intelligent!

We’ve been with our 2 and ¾ year old grandchild, and being with him, seeing through his eyes and senses, it’s clearly so true.  “Astonishing!  Everything is intelligent!”

Grandchild notices everything and wants to know purpose and interaction.  Posts provide the retaining wall for our Japanese garden.  He wants to understand them, to know why they’re lined up like cars on a train.  Are they a train?  I never noticed before.  I simply saw posts.  Suddenly I felt the aliveness still there in the posts, in the metal in cars on a train, and the interdependence in the garden swept over and through me.  “Astonishing!  Everything is intelligent,” when one sees with the eyes, innocence, and wisdom of a child.  

View of the city from Sausalito yesterday – no heat wave here

At the Children’s Bay Area Discovery Museum

The Hearings

I watched all three hours last night. It’s inspiring to see the two parties cooperating, to see ethics and morality in action. What a contrast to the other side.

If you missed it, or want to refresh, Heather Cox Richardson reports with her usual insight and depth.

https://heathercoxrichardson.substack.com

Morning Fog Moving to Clear – may the hearings continue to bring forth the same

West Marin

Photos speak.

Bolinas Lagoon – egrets and geese

Three baby otters playing on the sand dune

Mother Otter and three babies

Cuddle, Snuggle, and Wiggle Time

Mother and Child

Mother with two of her children

Otter Grace

Great Blue Heron and Otter – each with a niche

Early Morning in Inverness, CA

Years ago, I did the Coastwalk.  We walked the coast of Marin, spending the night in tents, a hostel, at Audubon Canyon Ranch.  We walked along the bay, up hills, slept by the beach, walking, tasting, talking, and not.

This morning I walked alone along Tomales Bay – low tide.

From The Power of An Open Question by Elizabeth Mattis Namgyel:

Life is full.  In fact, life is so touching, curious, sad, exciting, scary, and bittersweet it’s almost unbearable at times. But as human beings, we need to ask ourselves:”Must we turn away from life’s fullness?” To turn or not to turn – to stay open – this is the question. And this kind of questioning takes us deep into the heart of personal inquiry and shows us how to fully embrace our humanity.

Vision

Looking for Breakfast

Serenity

When I drive to Pt. Reyes I go up over the mountain, down to Stinson, along the Bolinas Lagoon, and this time of year past hills of gold to Pt. Reyes Station, and then out to Inverness.  The bookstore in Pt. Reyes is pure delight.  I brought three books and a Kindle but just in case, three more enter my life:  Wanderers: A History of Women Walking, In Praise of Walking, and The Unwinding and Other Dreamings.  I branched between four books last night even as I was entranced with and embraced in the landscape, the land of the Coast Miwok, the land where the native people welcomed Drake, not knowing what was to come.

Now, early morning, still dark, I warm by a fire and contemplate what we’re seeing from the James Webb telescope.  Perhaps it’s like when people realized the earth went around the sun.  We’re drawn back into time, time as one with now.  Surely this will expand our vision to this communal living we share.

If you held a grain of sand up to the sky at arm’s length, that tiny speck is the size of Webb’s view in this image. Imagine—galaxies galore within a grain …

—NASA Webb Telescope’s Twitter account

Mt. Tam

Bolinas Lagoon at low tide

Looking up through the branches of a serenity tree

Transition

The fog is moving in and out playing games with the sun.  I watch and move within.  

Because people I know are dying, I’m very aware of death, and these last few days I’ve been going over the losses of the years.  Perhaps it’s also  because my mother’s birthday was Saturday and my “baby” brother’s was yesterday that my focus is there.  My mother passed when she was 78 and would have been 95.  My brother would have been 69.

I’m heading out to Inverness for a few nights.  It’s where I process death.  The land is on an earthquake fault and one travels back and forth from one tectonic plate to another.  It’s like playing hopscotch, a chance to pick up stones, and hop from one square to another, journeying a joy, augmented with sorrow, filled path.

Monkey Flower

Respite

The ridge without its wrap of fog